Finding the Light .... Defining the Dark

Finding the Light
Everything seemed wrong until my eyes opened fully. The world seemed dark and gloomy - but it always does through the slits of your lashes. Sitting on that couch amongst people with eyes barely open too, we learned how to see the world. Together we let the light back into our lives and it shone brightly through our faces.
Soon the light became too bright for us, and our eyes began to squint instinctively. But we were reminded that the world looks better in the light than in the empty nothingness we meet in the dark. There is beauty in the places that the sun's rays go to.


Defining the Dark
The darkness comes from the isolation and depression that joins bipolar, eating disorders and borderline personality disorder. No one "gets me". They don't hear my voice. Can not see my pain. Can not feel the reverberating sadness within that I feel. Don not need to pay attention to the realities...
Stay on the surface.
Put on a smile.
Never feel your sadness. Eat it. Throw it up. Drink it down. Take a chill pill (or 10). Feel nothing and do as you should. Let happiness find you. Don't waste your time seeking it! Shut your eyes and know your darkness. For that is all you will ever have...